At this moment I find myself in need of some major discipleship. I mean my true and honest desire is that God and I truly are one but I think the problem is that life throws curve balls and the devil is upping his game so that I stay grounded and never take flight. His ploys are relentless-- I mean we can find this evident in that things that we used to do with God are now boring and monotonous which makes getting in God's presence difficult. Its kinda upsetting but I understand that in order to keep things fresh with God we gotta change it up. So before when I was kicking it with God the old fashioned way with the Word in front of me and pen in hand... I had to change it up. I am not saying that enjoying the presence of God that way doesn't work... I am saying that only doing in that way wont really help me grow as much as I have the potential to because it is not as enjoyable right now.
I, like most people find spiritual maturity in reading. So recently as in 2 days ago I bought Beth Moore's "So long, Insecurity". Let me say that I had no idea, when I subconsciously said to her "disciple me through what you have written as God is discipling you", what I was signing up for. I guess, I thought this would be some great inspirational reading that will help me deal with some issues and produce growth in my life. I am sorry that I limited God in that way. I have reached chapter 4 and thus far Beth has marched down my street, walked in my driveway, stepped on my porch and kicked down the door.
If I am honest it doesn't feel good for God to, within yourself, expose what He is about to clean out but I'm truly grateful. Thus far in the book we have just thoroughly discussed what my insecurities look like and even the misconception of what security truly is. I am now consciously aware that when I make a statement or do something if it is dripping in insecurity. This journey is really just between God and I and yet I am naked and exposed and vulnerable... But the best place to be is naked before God because this gives Him the opportunity to clothe you in His character. I have a ways to go but as for what I am reading right now, if I apply it I will be a secure woman.
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I, like most people find spiritual maturity in reading. So recently as in 2 days ago I bought Beth Moore's "So long, Insecurity". Let me say that I had no idea, when I subconsciously said to her "disciple me through what you have written as God is discipling you", what I was signing up for. I guess, I thought this would be some great inspirational reading that will help me deal with some issues and produce growth in my life. I am sorry that I limited God in that way. I have reached chapter 4 and thus far Beth has marched down my street, walked in my driveway, stepped on my porch and kicked down the door.
If I am honest it doesn't feel good for God to, within yourself, expose what He is about to clean out but I'm truly grateful. Thus far in the book we have just thoroughly discussed what my insecurities look like and even the misconception of what security truly is. I am now consciously aware that when I make a statement or do something if it is dripping in insecurity. This journey is really just between God and I and yet I am naked and exposed and vulnerable... But the best place to be is naked before God because this gives Him the opportunity to clothe you in His character. I have a ways to go but as for what I am reading right now, if I apply it I will be a secure woman.
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