Here’s your moment!

I am sitting in my bed thinking about how I desperately want my life to change.  I can see many ways in which God deserves more from me.  And if God deserves more then that must not be limited to spiritual things and my relationship to Him but also those things I give to others and myself.  In other words, my interdependent relationships deserve more from me and I deserve more from me. 

Often times I get paralyzed by the fear of failure and instead of pressing to victory I cushion the fall of defeat by only giving the best half of me I can give…  That half deserves a standing ovation-she is the best person that you can think up but the other half is slowly dying from fears asphyxiation.  I hang my head when I think about that.  Partially because I am aware that hiding doesn’t work and yet I continue in this sin that grace may abound—God forbid!

Ok so this is one of many changes I’d love to surrender to God and just let Him have His way in me and habit has me expecting 2011 to be different than 2010… That somehow I will allow God to be greater in me, to make greater changes in me starting 3 days from now at the stroke of midnight.  For years I have situated my hope and expectation on the seat of the New Year and have found myself disappointed because I depended too much on time and not the God of Change who lacks limitation and restraint. 

As I toil over this concept what I am being reminded of is that my God—the Miracle working God-- is the same yesterday, today, and forever more!  And because that is so, God can change my life and situation even right now.  If I fully rely on God what does the new year matter?!  I am sure that it does actually but it is secondary to our faithful God who is!

I think God is just waiting to work a miracle in our lives whenever we need it.  I can hear Him say, “Here’s your moment!”

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