Here’s your moment!

I am sitting in my bed thinking about how I desperately want my life to change.  I can see many ways in which God deserves more from me.  And if God deserves more then that must not be limited to spiritual things and my relationship to Him but also those things I give to others and myself.  In other words, my interdependent relationships deserve more from me and I deserve more from me. 

Often times I get paralyzed by the fear of failure and instead of pressing to victory I cushion the fall of defeat by only giving the best half of me I can give…  That half deserves a standing ovation-she is the best person that you can think up but the other half is slowly dying from fears asphyxiation.  I hang my head when I think about that.  Partially because I am aware that hiding doesn’t work and yet I continue in this sin that grace may abound—God forbid!

Ok so this is one of many changes I’d love to surrender to God and just let Him have His way in me and habit has me expecting 2011 to be different than 2010… That somehow I will allow God to be greater in me, to make greater changes in me starting 3 days from now at the stroke of midnight.  For years I have situated my hope and expectation on the seat of the New Year and have found myself disappointed because I depended too much on time and not the God of Change who lacks limitation and restraint. 

As I toil over this concept what I am being reminded of is that my God—the Miracle working God-- is the same yesterday, today, and forever more!  And because that is so, God can change my life and situation even right now.  If I fully rely on God what does the new year matter?!  I am sure that it does actually but it is secondary to our faithful God who is!

I think God is just waiting to work a miracle in our lives whenever we need it.  I can hear Him say, “Here’s your moment!”

Read+Apply=Change(NOW)

Looking past ourselves aint easy but NECESSARY!!!

Often times I find myself trying to self-gratify by the things I buy.  It can be anything... a watch, food, clothes, an ink pen.  I think I hope to comfort myself with some kind of possession but all attempts are futile.  What is worst about this exercise is that gratification happens but momentarily before I return to my state of discomfort and insecurity.  


Beth Moore discusses in the book how money or financial stability will not buy your security.  That is a word for me.  Why?  Because I often try to find my security in that card swipe or every online purchase. I try in hopes that that small gratification will some kind of way be magnified in me and it never happens.  I gamble with this concept like the lottery thinking maybe this will be the time I find my security.  And yet what happens is that I find myself more insecure singing the perpetual song, "I'm broke, I'm broke, I'm broke!".  As a college student this is a song that is normal for me to sing anyway but at this pace of finding security in my spending this song echos into my future threatens my future generations.


A good [man] leaveth an inheritance to his children's children: and the wealth of the sinner [is] laid up for the just. 
(Proverbs 13:22)


The Word of God is saying something to me right there! Stop spending and return to God what is His.  Let Him be my accountant and my security.  This is a legit struggle for me... really. So pray for me, I am praying for you.


Beth writes a great concept that we should all prayerfully adopt:  the more selfish we are, the more miserable we become.  The greedier we are the less secure we feel and the more we hoard things the more we should give things away.  That is a God principle and if we pay attention enough we will recognize its true.  Sad to say--it is fact for me.  Our call is to a dying world and our security to them is the only way we can point it to the light of Christ so that He can give hope, healing, restoration, change, future-- eternity.


Read+Apply=Change!!!!